Everything seems to be falling apart
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Everything seems to be falling apart
Well where do I start? I really don't know. I feel like that everything is falling around around me. My relationship with my parents(My mother in particular), my church, with God all seem to be collapsing around me. My mom thinks I'm a satanist because I reject the idea that a whole genre is evil. My mom accused me of letting satan into our house and whatnot. Also, word is starting to get around in my church that I like metal and when that does I'll be dealing with people pulling me up the the alter to cast demons out of me and people trying to talk sense into me. I'm sure no I know the whole thing would be extremely shameful for my parents because I know that everyone will think that they are not right with God for "Letting such diabolical sin" into our house. All this and I find myself falling into something I thought was long gone. I'm not going to go into great detail what it is but its pretty...'sensual' and to make it worse I feel like that I've reached a point where God has turned his back on me.
I've also got other things going on such as a sister with a terminal lung disease and taking care of my senile grandmother. I don't think I've ever felt so alone in my life as I do now. I feel so cold and spiritually abandoned.
Well that's it. I'm pretty sure I failed badly at explaining my situation. Also, I'm not trying to demonize my family and Church. I love them with all my heart and they are good people.
I've also got other things going on such as a sister with a terminal lung disease and taking care of my senile grandmother. I don't think I've ever felt so alone in my life as I do now. I feel so cold and spiritually abandoned.
Well that's it. I'm pretty sure I failed badly at explaining my situation. Also, I'm not trying to demonize my family and Church. I love them with all my heart and they are good people.
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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bassdude- Metal Warrior
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
You're in my prayers man. Ive recently been through a "my mom thinks im a satanist" problem when she found out i had some secular metal cds that she didnt know about, and because of that, some church people listened to her and assumed the same evils about me. It really sucks feeling rejected by people who you are close to.
nerf_herder4444- Metal Warrior
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Gah, facepalm
Although, I have to say that IMO there is no need to go to non-christian bands any longer, there is so much quality around now from artists that are Honouring God
Although, I have to say that IMO there is no need to go to non-christian bands any longer, there is so much quality around now from artists that are Honouring God
Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
I am still praying sickthing
Fix your eyes on Jesus bro
dont run from Him even when you feel or think God has turned away, that is a lie from the enemy, flee evil, cling to what is good
resist the devil, with Christ, and he MUST flee from you!!!
Fix your eyes on Jesus bro
dont run from Him even when you feel or think God has turned away, that is a lie from the enemy, flee evil, cling to what is good
resist the devil, with Christ, and he MUST flee from you!!!
Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Thanks everyone for the prayers. I think I should give an update of the current state of affairs or whatever. Things seem to be about the same, really. My mom still thinks I'm slipping away from God and whatnot so yeah.
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
If nothing else, press into God to prove others wrong
God does not hate you, draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.
Spend time in scripture and prayer
God is your judge, but firstly He is your Father and is watching over you!!!
God does not hate you, draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.
Spend time in scripture and prayer
God is your judge, but firstly He is your Father and is watching over you!!!
Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
I understand what you're going through brother.
Metal Blaze- mallcore n00b
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Just a quick update. I run the risk of being kicked out of my youth group now. If that happens...well I dunno what I'll do. I'm so confused right now.
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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How can you be kicked out of a youth group? I don't understand that...
As far as music, you like what you like. Hymns were written to bar tunes...
As far as the sin you've fallen back to, it doesn't sound like God turned His back on you, it sounds like people you thought were your support system have.
I'll be praying.
As far as music, you like what you like. Hymns were written to bar tunes...
As far as the sin you've fallen back to, it doesn't sound like God turned His back on you, it sounds like people you thought were your support system have.
I'll be praying.
Gandalf the White- Holy Unblack Knight
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Apparently I could corrupt the rest of the youth with my wicked metal listening ways.
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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I'll be praying as well.
Sadly, I know how it feels to have someone you trust turn away from you over something as small as the music you like.
I understand how you feel. If you want to talk, PM me.
Sadly, I know how it feels to have someone you trust turn away from you over something as small as the music you like.
I understand how you feel. If you want to talk, PM me.
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Some people will never understand. I went through a very similar situation with my mom. She complains about everything under the sun, but she complained about this the most. So, I read her the lyrics to "A Sovereign Fortress" by Antestor. She started screaming "I don't understand this!" She couldn't be reasoned with.
Anyways, you can always try to have an honest conversation with your mom(I assume she'd be easier to reason with than mine. There's really something wrong with her). Ask where in the Bible forms of music are restricted, even if it lifts God up. Try to show the lyrics of the Christian music you listen to. Of course, there's no answer to that. If you listen to Theocracy, they'd be great to show. You'd be hard pressed to find anything, CCM included, as good lyrically as them.
As for getting kicked out of youth group? I know that too, but that was for something completely different. I hit this kid in the face a few times for calling me quite vulgar names after the leaders refused to even ask him to stop. It was at AWANAs.
Anyways, you can always try to have an honest conversation with your mom(I assume she'd be easier to reason with than mine. There's really something wrong with her). Ask where in the Bible forms of music are restricted, even if it lifts God up. Try to show the lyrics of the Christian music you listen to. Of course, there's no answer to that. If you listen to Theocracy, they'd be great to show. You'd be hard pressed to find anything, CCM included, as good lyrically as them.
As for getting kicked out of youth group? I know that too, but that was for something completely different. I hit this kid in the face a few times for calling me quite vulgar names after the leaders refused to even ask him to stop. It was at AWANAs.
Peter who was Vaak- Holy Unblack Knight
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Well another update. 1. My sister passed away on Saturday and 2. My dad pretty much told me that I was going to 'burn in a Devil's hell' for listening to metal. Secular and Christian. So yeah :/
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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Sickthing wrote:Well another update. 1. My sister passed away on Saturday and 2. My dad pretty much told me that I was going to 'burn in a Devil's hell' for listening to metal. Secular and Christian. So yeah :/
I'm very sorry and my prayers are with you and your family.
....actually, getiing " kicked out " of that youth group or church would be a very healthy thing for you.
If your able to find and go to another Church on your own.....do so. Please. Your parents will always be your parents. Respect them even when you don't agree with them.
sentient 6- Sacred Metal Prophet
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
I got into another bad fight with my parents. One of the worst ones yet to be honest. You know, it isn't the fact they don't like my music is that they tell me I'm demon possessed and I'm going to burn in hell for listening to it. Its really painful...
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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...I pray that God will open a door to end the mental abuse..I pray that God will put some healthy, well balanced Christians in your life. I pray that the Holy Spirit will reveal the errors of your church to your parents.
....ask them how a professed believer in the Lord Jesus Christ could be possessed ? You are now a part of Gods Kingdom and no longer a part of satans. You are filled with the Holy Spirit and where the Spirit dwells there will be no " demon. "
....ask them how a professed believer in the Lord Jesus Christ could be possessed ? You are now a part of Gods Kingdom and no longer a part of satans. You are filled with the Holy Spirit and where the Spirit dwells there will be no " demon. "
sentient 6- Sacred Metal Prophet
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
Well things seem to be be getting better. I've been been getting lectures and whatnot or been hearing any comments. That or I've just got to the point where I really don't care what other people think.
Sickthing- Seasoned Guardian
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Re: Everything seems to be falling apart
"Thou shall not bear false witness against thy neighbor"...
Blessed are they who are falsely accused for Christ's sake.
It is grieving to hear about this kind of thing still going on; most mainline churches I thought had opened up to the sub-cultures. Legalists and conspiracy-theorists abound.
I would just hide the metal, for the sake of peace in the household, and if possible, join a non-legalist church full of rockin' Christians who will understand, such as Mars Hill http://www.acts29network.org/churches/ or Scum of the Earth http://www.scumoftheearth.net/SOTEC/Staff.html ...
...Some demon-caster-outer type people can be overboard.
I pray that you find non-judgmental believer(s) friendship that will be a blessing, for iron sharpens iron and where two or three are gathered to pray in Christ's name, there He is in the midst of them, healing.
God is the only one that does not turn His back. Humankind's nature is fallen in sin, and with false conversions i.e. "religion", un-regenerate professors of faith are mixed in with the true born-again representatives of Christ the Merciful.
May the Lord forgive them, for they know not what they do. Condemnation is not the Spirit of Christ. God alone is judge and knows the heart. And the heart is what He'll look at on the Day of Judgment; woe to those who said "Lord, Lord" but whom He never knew for their works of lawlessness. Love (Agape) is the whole of the Law!
Crucify the Flesh, amen to that.
Blessed are they who are falsely accused for Christ's sake.
It is grieving to hear about this kind of thing still going on; most mainline churches I thought had opened up to the sub-cultures. Legalists and conspiracy-theorists abound.
I would just hide the metal, for the sake of peace in the household, and if possible, join a non-legalist church full of rockin' Christians who will understand, such as Mars Hill http://www.acts29network.org/churches/ or Scum of the Earth http://www.scumoftheearth.net/SOTEC/Staff.html ...
...Some demon-caster-outer type people can be overboard.
I pray that you find non-judgmental believer(s) friendship that will be a blessing, for iron sharpens iron and where two or three are gathered to pray in Christ's name, there He is in the midst of them, healing.
God is the only one that does not turn His back. Humankind's nature is fallen in sin, and with false conversions i.e. "religion", un-regenerate professors of faith are mixed in with the true born-again representatives of Christ the Merciful.
May the Lord forgive them, for they know not what they do. Condemnation is not the Spirit of Christ. God alone is judge and knows the heart. And the heart is what He'll look at on the Day of Judgment; woe to those who said "Lord, Lord" but whom He never knew for their works of lawlessness. Love (Agape) is the whole of the Law!
Crucify the Flesh, amen to that.
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